# From Nightclubs to Islam – I Had It All… Until I Faced Death! @TheDeenShowTV

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- Published: 2026-08-26
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Chasing money, power, status. It was just a life of desires. We were seeing there was a few guys on the street, and it's already late at night. The guys started asking us, "Hey, what's up?" He's getting too close. I hit the guy. But in the meantime, one of the guys took a broken bottle and then stabbed me in the back. My friends tell me, "Hey, man, you're bl**ding." Now you start asking the important question. What's the purpose of life? Why am I here? Why have I been created? I remember one time going to a party and the elevator got stuck. Imagine being just a packed elevator full of people, and I'm sweating. First minute, okay, you're calm. Second, and then imagine you're claustrophobic.

What happens if I die in this state now that I'm coming home from a party and I'm not living my true purpose? How the Creator Allah wants me to live? At that point, I wanted to know, what does Allah want from me? What does the Creator want from me? Assalamualaikum, brother Eddie Redzovic. Thank you for accepting our invitation and hosting us. And we are very happy to have you with us. I want to start with, who is Eddie Redzovic? Can you tell us briefly about your life? Waalaikumassalaam. My name is Eddie Redzovic. I'm a professor of Gracie Brazilian jiu jitsu. I'm also the host of The Deen Show, and currently we're working on opening the Deen Center.

I was born in Buffalo, New York, raised in Chicago, and I've been sharing the message of Islam since the early 2000s. So can you take us back to your life before your Islamic life? The environments you were in your life, your habits? What kind of process were you going through? My life before Islam was like, I would consider in the darkness. It was just a life of desires. It was just a life of passions, of chasing money, power, status. If you don't have positive friends, good role models, those become your role models. So you're sitting watching the music, the rap videos, the music videos, Hollywood stars, and that's who you admire. That's who you want to imitate. That's who you look up to.

That's who you want to achieve to be like. The environment that I was coming up with at the middle part of my life was a really bad environment, and it was an environment of gangs. It was an environment of just destruction. So it was people who were lost. I was following the lost. And we were just going from one problem to the next. It was just a bunch of troublemakers, people that were out there from young and stupid, and trying to achieve some kind of power, trying to achieve something that you think would gain you more respect and credibility in life. And that's the kind of friends that I was around. So I was very competitive. So I tried to be the best in some of the worst things.

Always fighting. Do you recall a memory from back then that you can maybe tell us? Well, things like when we find out the other crew would be at a certain place, we'd be at a bar or a nightclub. Maybe they had the upper hand on us at one time. So now we found out that they're going to be coming out of a certain place. So then we'd be waiting for them. So it'd be our guys, and then they're coming out and we see their guys, and there was a lot of hands-on activity, right? So they'd come out and then we would go back. And then you look back, why were you actually fighting? It was just, I don't even remember. It was something stupid. Yeah.

Where would you be if you didn't stop living that life and come to Islam again? I think there's two ways. If you continue down that kind of life, you're either going to be in jail, or you're going to end up d**d. because there's always fresh, young blood coming up, and you think you're the man on the block, but then the next person who's more hungry, and he's the one now that cares less. You start growing older and you start to care a little bit more. But the young guys coming up, they don't.

So, if you continue that life and we just have to watch, because many of my idols and celebrities that I looked up to, but then I saw them in real life, and then those are the people I started to look up to. But we started with the movies, with the Tony Montana's and Scarface, and then Goodfellas and Al Pacino, Robert De Niro, the Mafia movies. But then you start hanging around with real mafia guys in life, and then you're like, "Wow, this is even cooler." I'm actually imitating the guys or living the way of life of the guys on the TV. And then you start, you make your own little crew. And now you think, "Okay, I made it to the top." But actually you're at the far bottom.

So you had a gang and you were maybe the leaders, -or you were the leader of the gang. -Yes. So we started off in high school. In high school, they had different crews and they had different... Like the basketball team, the football team. But we had our little crew and then that crew... Actually, before that I was involved in street gang as a young kid growing up. And then from there, that kind of got played out, the street gang, right? And then you go to making a crew. So you get a bunch of guys now that are pretty much doing the same thing like you are. And now you have your crew of guys that hang out with you, party with you, go to the clubs with you and are down with you, right?

If anything happens, they're the ones that got your back. If there's anything now that needs to be taken care of, those are the guys that take care of it with you. So I rose up. I was somebody who liked to fight, somebody who was also always wanting to prove myself on the street. And I became the head guy of that little crew. Did you ever get into a problem with the cops, with the police, or get arrested or anything? Yes, yes, that was something that has happened in the past. Yes. And you went to jail? I didn't go to federal penitentiary. I didn't go to... Like some people, when you get arrested and then you get sent away. No. I went to the Cook County Jail.

I would go to jail for fighting to get out the next day, things like that. So do you have a gang memory that you can tell us? As Towards Eternity, we need your support. We are a charity organization that aims to spread the message of Islam to the entire world in ten languages. With your support, you can help people convert to Islam, give up harams, start praying, wear hijab, learn to read the Qur'an and so on. And get your share from all these good deeds, Inshallah. Donate to Towards Eternity and don't miss this golden opportunity. Well, there's quite a few. I remember one time I was... I remember I had shaved my head and I had two earrings in my ear.

And I remember one time we finished leaving one party, and we were walking down intersection, Lawrence Street. And it was me and a few of my guys. And we went down and we hit an area up ahead. We were seeing there was a few guys on the street, and it's already late at night. It's got to be probably 10 or 11 at night. And as we're approaching, the guys start asking us, "Hey, what's up? What do you be about?" Right, so now they... In Chicago and different places in the United States, they have these hand gestures. So if you just throw up this hand gesture, that one can get you killed. If you're in the wrong area, just by a stupid hand gesture. So we said, look...

At this point, I had left the gangs and I was with the crew. So, it's not a gang thing, but these guys are gang members now. So they're asking. We say, "Look, we're not about anything," and we're trying to walk our way. But then they're insisting. And things are starting to escalate. And then the person is in front of us who's continuing, you know, provoking. So I see it's going to kick off and he's getting too close. And you got to defend yourself, right? So, I hit the guy. And then now the other guy's jumped in, and from there, it was like a bunch of, rats, you know, from all over the place, started to come out. Because it was a bar, I think, on the left.

And then the guys started whistling. So we're in their hood, what you call it. So then they came out and now it's too many. So we start to retreat. But one of my friends, he's still caught there in a pile of guys beating them up. So I run back, throw this guy off, throw this guy, try to get him out of there. But in the meantime, one of the guys took a broken bottle and then st**bed me in the back. I didn't know at the time I'd been st**bed and I kept running. I kept running as we got away, we were running, running. And I'm already thinking, how are we going to get revenge? Right, that's that mentality. So I'm going, thinking, okay, I got to go get something to come back.

We can't let these guys get away with it. And that's the repetitive nature. That's how it keeps going. But as I keep going, I hear my friends telling me, "Hey, man, you're bl**ding." And I got bl**d just gushing out my back. And then I start, like, going faint, you know, really getting dizzy. And then they come. I sit down. And Alhamdulillah, we got far enough. And it ended up, the ambulance had to come and I went to the hospital. So that was a moment that it could have been... It could have been a lot worse. I could have end up possibly d**d. So what about your parents? How was your family's reaction to your street life and this lifestyle? Were they concerned? Yes, they were very concerned.

This was something that probably stressed them out, especially my mother. She was really, really stressed out. And that's why at one point I had to leave. I had to leave Chicago, and I went to stay in Bosnia for a couple of years to get away from, trying to make a change of environment. It was kind of like the hadith. What we hear reminds me of the man who killed 99 people. Now I never killed anybody, but the hadith states that the man went and he sought help from a scholar, a learned person. That person gave him the advice to go ahead and leave. Yes, there's always hope, there's always mercy. But you got to get out of this environment and you got to choose some new friends.

And I left the country. It's a state of heedlessness, you know? Allah describes in the Qur'an, you know, the different animals. They have a purpose, you know? The cow and the different creation. It eats, it sleeps, goes to the bathroom. So the human being almost becomes worse than the animal because the animal is serving its purpose. But the human being, now. What are you doing? You're just heedlessly running through life. And I think that's how state of my life and most people... You're not really thinking deeper, thinking and reflecting. What's the purpose? Not the means to the purpose. Okay, family, money. What if you can't have a family? What if at the end you don't make that kind of...

Or you make the money. We've had so many examples of people who've made billions, but then they jump out of the building, commit su**e because it doesn't fill that void in the heart. So it's almost like a state of zombieness. People are just going from one party to the next, one movie to the next, and one job to the next. Money, it's like a circle. Monday through Friday, party. Go back to Monday and then same thing all over again. If I ask the biggest regret about your past life, What would you say? The biggest regret? I would say, is hooking up with the wrong friend. I met this individual by the name of Paxton. He was someone who I really looked up to.

And this was probably one of my biggest regrets. It was a person who went down the wrong way. And I imitated this person. And that opened up the door of fitnah. That opened up the door to go down to the gangs, to go down to the crew, to go down to all this way. That would be my biggest regret. But at the end of the day, I mean, this was the qadr of Allah. So this was something that made me who I am. But if you asked me that from a logical perspective, because that would have me elaborate on the importance of having good friends. Your friends are like an elevator. They're either taking you up and down. So choose good friends.

Really, be around good people because friends, they really have an impact on you. Can you take us to the day when your life started to change? When you say, what am I doing? Where is all this going? So I'd gone through a point where, I had experienced so many different things in life. I'm getting older now. So you start seeing the gray hairs kick in, things don't feel the same. And I started to... It was one Ramadan. And that was one thing. My family, it was kind of... You heard the term, Ramadan Muslims. So sometimes even in our culture, some people will just fast or give up alc***l maybe for the month. And that was kind of the state I was in. Okay, I'm going to try to fast.

I'm going to go ahead and give up alc***l. And then I heard a story, I had... My sister had shared this story with me about someone who had died. And then the imam allowed the person's son, who dropped, as they were burying her, the wallet into the grave. Now, is this story true or not? We don't know. But just the reality of this story and connecting it to Islam really shook me up because as they dug up the grave, because the person had dropped his wallet into the grave, and now he had to get back to Germany or somewhere. So they allowed him to dig the grave up, and they pulled the body out and the body had been t*rtu*ed. So I said, "What is this?

What happened with this?" And I went back to share this story with my uncle. And my uncle gave me a book called "The Life, Death, and the Hereafter in the Grave." And this was a concept in Islam that we believe in, that there is the life Hereafter. And then before you get to Judgment Day, you will be in the grave. This is a reality for all of us. So I really reflected on that story, death. And I really started to think, I'm going to be in that grave. I remember one time going to a party, and the elevator got stuck. And it was a bunch of us in there, and we had to stay in there for like half hour until the fire department come to get us out. And it was like another sign Allah was sending me.

So I was imagining being, just a packed elevator full of people, and I'm sweating. First minute, okay, you're calm. Second... And then imagine you're claustrophobic. And then I started to connect that story to being now in this elevator. And I'm like, imagine, look where I'm at. Where am I going right now? I'm going to this party. Look, the elevator gets stuck. I'm already going through this transition. I'm thinking about purpose of life. Now, I read this book. The grave, we're going to end up there. And what happens if I die in this state? What happens if I die in this state now that I'm coming home from a party and I'm not living my true purpose, how the Creator Allah wants me to live.

And that was a moment in my life that really, really... Death, thinking about death, the Hereafter. That was something that really, really motivated me. And then you looked into... You started looking into other religions or just Islam? Now, at that point I wanted to know, what does Allah want from me? What does the Creator want from me? First thing was to establish prayer. So I started right away. I started to learn how to pray. Even I was putting headphones in my ears, and I would read Yusuf Islam's book, former Cat Stevens. He produced some how to pray... So I was going through that. So I got to, I was like, okay, this is what Allah wants from me. I got to be safe, okay?

Because if death comes... But then at the same time, I had it in my head. I was thinking, how do I know? Because now Shaitan comes and doubts start to creep in. How do I even know this is the truth? How do I know 100% this is the truth? Okay, that's where you got to now really investigate. So I started to investigate, right? I took a scientific analytical approach. I looked at all the different religions, opened up a world religions book, and I started to look at, okay, what is... How do I know Christianity is not the truth? How do I know Buddhism is not the truth? How do I know all these other isms? There's so many different religions.

So when you learn about the tawheed, about the pure monotheism, now you look at Christianity. It's calling you to worship Jesus, whom we love and revere as a mighty messenger. But now it's calling you to something now, you have to do mental gymnastics to make it fit. Trinity. God is the father, the Son, the Holy Ghost, But not three, but one. Then you look at the authenticity. That you have books, Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. And none of those, according to Bible scholars, none of those books were even written by them. So they're ascribed to authors who are anonymous. And that didn't make sense either. So you had the authenticity. You had the message.

It was something that didn't go with the fitrah, the innate nature. And then we move on from there and we look at all these other religions. For instance, you look at Hinduism, you're worshiping... It's pretty much paganism. You're worshiping different parts of Creation, a cow, a rat, or a manifestation of something that say, God is in here everywhere. None of this made sense. Again, moving to the next, ancestral worship. If you look at worshiping fire, worshiping ancestors, people of the past, people in their graves. Statues, everything you can imagine the human being at one point or another...

And one by one you just started to see that they all called, one form or another, to creation worship, to worshiping other than God, to worshiping other than Allah. Tawheed, the pure absolute monotheism of Islam. Once I got to know that and I was really grounded in the absolute monotheism, the pure monotheism, Islam, that was the measuring stick. That was what helped me to differentiate truth from falsehood. So from there, step by step, it takes time. So I gave up alc**l right away. I started praying right away. I started, really, I was adamant. I have to do what Allah wants me to do, because death... Now I'm really at that point. Death was a catalyst. It really put the fear in me.

So slowly, the way I was earning my money, from the friends, all of those things. It was a test. So now, you're exposed to the truth. Are you going to go with the truth, or are you going to go ahead and still make excuses and still stay in that environment? And then you're going to lose that blessing that you have? I chose Islam rather than all of these things. When you can live without any restrictions, when you can move freely, when you can do whatever you want, whenever you want, whatever you want. Wasn't it too difficult to switch to such a lifestyle, with rules, with regulations in Islam? No, actually it was more structured. It made more sense for helping...

You have some kind of organization in life, helping you to be structured just like in a business. If somebody wants to be successful, you have some kind of blueprint that you go by and then that guidance... Just like you had a mentor. If somebody that you really respect, a money entrepreneur, someone who's made billions and that person now, if you want to make billions and that person is telling you how to do so. So, we all want to be successful. We just have the Creator telling us how to achieve that success. And it was wonderful. So maybe after you became serious about your religion, after seeing maybe the 9/11 happened and... So, then it was even harder. It was much harder, yeah.

It was much harder because people now... The information about Islam, everybody thought, okay, Islam teaches terrorism. Islam is barbaric, violent, but it's the opposite. And it's on us to go ahead and help people really understand what Islam and Muslims are all about. And that was, I felt, my calling. That was my... I had a real passion and desire to want to do that, because I saw that it's not something... If you had to go ahead and sell people on a product that really has bad reviews, it doesn't work. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But Islam is from the Creator. It's perfect. It's perfect. It's not a man made religion or way of life. It's from the divine, from the Creator.

Submission to the will of the one God. That's what it literally means. So now when people go ahead and examine it like I did, if they're sincere, they'll see the same thing. So you also looked at the Qur'an, of course, and read it. Is there a particular Surah or Ayah that really struck you or had an effect on you? So many, so many. But one was, "Truly in the remembrance of Allah, do hearts find rest." I remember reading this one and I got emotional. Because I was starting to feel the rest. From being restless, I started to feel some rest in my heart.

And when I started to start implementing what Allah told me to do, I started to feel that Sakina, that tranquility, that peace that people pay all sorts of money and material possessions and with their wealth, but they can't get it. They have all of the wealth, the material things, but they cannot find that peace, what Allah was talking about in that Ayah. When you looked at his life, what impressed you the most about him (saw)? I was telling my family. I tell my family often.

I was like, when we open up the Qur'an and you're reading the Qur'an, or you're reading Fortress of a Muslim, I said, just think about these common things before we get into all the miracles of the Qur'an, the prophecies. What man has the time to put all this together? Common sense. How? It doesn't make any sense. When he was offered, like the politicians of our time, just going and tantalize them with a little bit of a bribe, some money, offer them some kind of... Like most people get bought. He was offered every... Do you want women? We'll give you. Do you want status, power? We'll make you the head of us. The king of us. Do you want... Whatever you want. Fame, money, status.

And he said, "Look, if you put the moon in my right hand, the sun in my left hand. Doesn't matter what you give me, I'm not abandoning this mission of la ilaha illallah. And this is what impressed me so much. So in those days, you come up with the idea of The Deen Show? Can you tell us that process? Yeah. YouTube had just started around that time. I was preparing to go to my Hajj for the first time. So. So I had a Sheikh, Sheikh Mohamed Sayed Ali, he was somebody who I had met. And we decided to okay, let's film this. So we had a little panel discussion asking the different questions. We filmed it.

He was like, "Wow, this is good." I was already thinking ahead, thinking like, a lot of people in this culture, they don't like just a lecture being played to them. They're not programmed in this way. They want to see. They like the talk show sheddings like we see today. And I thought, okay, let's try this. It worked. We did more episodes. And then we started to put it out there and I said, "Wow, this is a great way to reach a lot of people, to go ahead and make it interactive. I know the tempo of the culture, the kind of questions people have. So I knew the questions to ask that are on the minds of people. I started asking those questions.

We started putting it out there and Alhamdulillah, from there things just started to move forward. Alhamdulillah. Do you remember the first Shahada maybe you have been a means of? I'm a fourth degree black belt of Gracie Brazilian jiu jitsu. So I would share with some of my students. and many of them also ended up taking their Shahada. How did you feel when you first had this moment that your student took Shahada? It was a good feeling. It was excitement. It was really exciting to see that people... And it's not a hard sell. It's really easy. Worship one God, not the creation. There's nothing worthy of worship except your Creator, in Arabic.

And Muhammad is the last and final messenger, just like Jesus was a messenger, Abraham, Moses. It's something that just makes sense and they were not resisting that. Some, you have to go back and forth and clear some doubts. There's always maybe some kind of doubt. You clear it up, back and forth. And people are like, okay, wow, it's not what I was fed by the hate provocateurs and the Islamophobia industry. So you were also giving da'wah as you walk the street because you said you're so excited. So how would you approach people? I heard a story from one of your interviews that you were just approaching people. Can you tell us your efforts about this? So, memories. Yeah...

Well, when we go out on the street and now you're set, you're going out there and you're giving people information, or you see some people, and now there's an opening. Because people get out there to sell a product, to sell something that will maybe help them clean the floor a little better with a vacuum. But you're helping. Truly. Allah says in the Qur'an that saving one innocent being is to save the world. So imagine saving people from the hellfire. Because there's two destinations when we die, the Paradise and the hellfire.

So days where we get out with my best friend Doctor Sabile and others, and we get out there on the street and giving out different pamphlets on the purpose of life, on Jesus, the Qur'an. And we've had many people, also, when we're there and they'll come. And these are memorable moments when we're sitting there and a person comes and just talking to them for a few minutes and then they accept Islam. But what happens is Allah had already been preparing them and Alhamdulillah, it ends up sprouting just at that time. And it's something... It's an amazing feeling. What was the most negative reaction you received from a person while you were giving da'wah? Insults on the Prophet (saw).

Some people calling you terrorists, terrorist religion, those kind of, you know, below the belt... People have no intelligent argument. So then they'll hit below the belt. They're angry with themselves. They don't have purpose in life. They're bitter because if you're a true Christian, you don't want to act, you're not supposed to act like that. Because Jesus is teaching love, "Prince of Peace." But you're over here insulting. It's not love for your neighbor. You're not going to win somebody over towards Christianity or whatever religion that you're following, right? Any religion has these concepts of developing yourself to be a good human being. That's not being a good human being.

You're just being the worst of human being. And now you're insulting. We're not even supposed to do that. We don't insult other people's religions and disrespect Jesus. Allah says, "Don't insult their gods because they're going to insult yours." So we don't do that. I'll tell you a story. I was with my son and another brother, and I was taking them to go ahead and get something to eat. And the car starts veering to the right. I said, "What's this? It's a rental car. Why is it giving me problems?" Next thing you know, I figure out as the brother jumps out, we got a flat tire.

So we stop at the restaurant, and I'm calling the tow place, and I said, "Okay, now I got to change the tire." So I tell my son, "Come with me." You always want to look for good in situations. I said it's a good time to teach my son a life skill. Changing the tire. So I take the dummy tire off. Alhamdulillah. I put the tire under the car. As I'm putting the jack for safety... So, as I'm jacking it up, not like this, but like this, to put the dummy tire, the car falls. The car goes back. Alhamdulillah, the other tire was on there. Ryan comes out of nowhere. At the time I didn't know his name. So Ryan comes out. He's like, "What's going on, guys? Oh, that's happened to me before.

You got to put the jack like this and that and other..." And we start talking. He's out there. He's a non-Muslim guy, really great guy. He's getting out there, getting himself dirty. I get out there under him, I say, "Can I get you something?" He said, "No, no, I'm fine." And we start talking and at the end, it ends up, it's a da'wah opportunity. So we delivered the message. I always like to go ahead and deliver the message. And then at the end I ask him a simple question. I do this a lot. I said, "What you know about Islam? What did you know about Islam?" And what he said was, Ryan says that, "I didn't know anything except what I learned from when the Twin Towers fell." So he knows nothing.

This has nothing to do with Islam. So he's not at a zero. He's in a negative. I invited him to the Deen Center, but we had just... The next day, we also had a famous individual by the name of Royce Gracie. He's the Michael Jordan of the MMA, martial arts world. But the point of the story, he walked through the Deen Center. We showed him everything. We did a show with him and Sheikh Othman and myself. And at the end he ended up taking his Shahada. So that was our first Shahada at the Deen Center. Alhamdulillah. How did it feel? It's really a role model for you in your martial arts. It was kind of surreal. It was kind of like, Subhanallah, Is this just happening, I cannot...

You know, there's been so many we... Just to think, like, okay, he's coming. Again for people who know Royce Gracie, this is the Michael Jordan of the martial arts world. Anyone who knows Khabib and then they watch the UFC. If you go back to the roots, his brother started the Ultimate Fighting Championships. And he was the one, the first, second and third. He was the champion and he put it on the map. He was the reason people like Khabib and others, they enter into this sport to want to be UFC champions. It was because of this man, Royce Gracie, and he ended up coming out and taking his Shahada, the first one at the Deen Center. That just blew me away. Alhamdulillah.

How do you see the future of Islam in America? Are you hopeful? This is a prophecy. We're seeing it being fulfilled with or without us. It's a stock that continues to grow. I'm just seeing right now, I just saw this and I've been seeing this. You have some of the ardent Islamophobes... There was a lady by the name of Candace Owens, and just recently, she's apologizing to Muslims. And we were looking at some of her work from before, and she would bring on these Islamophobes that were propped up, even these fake Muslims, they'd pop up, they'd put them out there and they'd bring them on, and they would give a distorted view of Islam.

Why not bring, we have a credible consensus of people who look at this person, this scholar, this. Why are you picking the dirt of the bunch? These people were discredited. So she would bring on people like this because of the company she worked for. But to see someone like that, and to see pastors that I've also interviewed that... From her to see that, look, I was taught... Also, she said, "I feel bad." She was apologizing to Muslims. This was like a shift in the climate and the atmosphere. She's like, "I can't believe what Muslims were going through after 9/11." "I was programmed to believe they were terrorists, all of them.

Then I interviewed a pastor, a senior pastor, Pastor Rick." He was with CNN, CBN, Christian Broadcast Network. He said, "Eddie, look, I'm sorry, they taught us..." And this is also coming from that industry. They were pushing in the movies, the films. And he said, "Eddie, then it came into the churches, And we were taught that, and I would believe that possibly Muslims are going to come up and just stab me or something, right?" He said, "I feel so stupid. I feel ashamed and I'm sorry." Now the people are, like, waking up, from the trance that they were in, the programming. So this is a great shift.

And it seems like there's some hope now, Alhamdulillah, and we're seeing, this is what Allah is telling us. We're seeing when all of these things happen, like what's happened, this modern day genocide in Gaza that's happening. What are people now... They're investigating, They're looking, why, how, these people have this resilience. They're still praising Allah the Most High. And many have even accepted Islam because of this. How can a person know when it's the right time to change and become a practicing Muslim? Or maybe reverting to Islam just like you had? There is no time but the present time if you're watching this.

If Allah is giving you the opportunity now that your heart is softened, it's resonating and making sense. Before you go back to the w**d and the dr**s and the al**ol and the club, you got to seize that opportunity. Just fall right now and ask for the guidance. I tell people all the time, and then start taking the necessary steps to look into Islam, to explore. And I'm telling you, amazing things will happen. Brother Eddie, thank you so much for sharing your story sincerely. May Allah reward you for all the work you've been doing for the ummah. Ameen. Thank you brothers. Thank you.